Now after all of this time that we tried
I found out we were living a lie
That after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same


The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you


I woke up kinda early today
And something told me from that moment
It wouldn’t be the same
It felt like you were hiding something
But I didn’t push it
I didn’t know what to say
I tried to pretend, Like I didn’t see it
Cause deep down I knew I didn’t want to believe it
There it was, it was you and her
You left your sidekick on the nightstand
And I read
Everything you did, and everything you said and
And now I’m standing here looking like damn..
I thought it was you and I
Now I all I got to say is why?
After all of this time that we tried
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same


The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you


I notice now,that when I'm around
You be trying to lock the door
Whispering on the phone
Now wait a minute since we been in this house
You ain’t never did this before
Tell me what’s this about?
I tried to sit and say to myself
This here is too good he don’t want nothing else
There it was, it was you and her
You left your credit card receipt inside the beamer babe
Everything you bought her, and everything you spending
Now I’m standing here once again
I thought it was you and I
Now I all I have to say is why?
After all of this time that we tried
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same


The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you


You Lied, You lied, Oh Why?
Why'd you have to lie to me?
Why'd you have to lie to me?
Why'd you have to lie to me?
Why?


After all of the times that we've tried
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same


The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you

& i will only ♥ you.

累了 交困里努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了


听着 你心像往常还有热
越美丽越更勇敢的
我还能展示什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握


如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心


如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会颁这种法门
想牵着你 槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他给你 我不怪你


快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得


如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心


如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会颁这种法门
想牵着你 槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他给你


如果我变成回忆 最怕我单独终极
顽固的烂在空气 霸占你心里 每一寸空隙
原来依然爱我的你总哭 承受失去
这样不公平 请你整理 把我忘记


如果我有一天变成你的回忆, 请把我忘记.有人可以让你不再哭泣..

& i will only ♥ you.

SINCERE APPRECIATIONS TO CLAR AND NISEY for making the trip with me to SP yesterday ;D LOL! graduation is a troublesome thing. .___. but i'm OFFCIALLY A GRADUATE =DDDD *happy* mum kept asking me if there's a need for her to go. but then she got to work so i said never mind la. >< graduation ceremony only. sit so far away somemore. saw a MOHAWK wearing graduation attire. *AMAZED* -claps for his bravery- well, he took all the attention in the entire hall anyway. LOL!

brought nisey to FC4 for lunch. hehs. nice food right? :x anyway i had my share of fun there yesterday. meeting back my poly cliques not knowing when we'll have the time to meet up again. x.x all working D: myself included :x LOL!

anyway after the ceremony, we went off quite fast and clar and i went off to Bakerzin for her spaghetti. i just ate the cake. nice ;D tiring but enjoyable yesterday. :D pictures all with them cause i didn't bring my camera. ROFL! :p

oh and i saw maomao after his class yesterday. LOLOL! good huh, ended early. haha! but sista got UT cannot come D: nevermind. next year you can attend mao the graduation :DD HAHAH!

reached home alrdy 10 plus. kinda tired then went audi for awhile. played with AIAI, Clar and ring. so funny la. ring's on-going crapping. then we here add abit there add abit. laugh dao pengs. HAHA! too bad bliss went off earlier. didn't see her D: never mind, there's tonight :DD LOL!

think i really don't know how to appreciate lame stuff or what. that day met Ryan. he keep telling me lame stuff then i keep ._____. LOL! i think he see my reaction also sian la. LMHO!

woke JX up this morning LOL! how i know you off this entire week la D:< some more i text only leh. x__x arrange time to meet up huh! sat got cycle count x.x sunday meeting Clar, Nic and Yun late lunch? or early dinner? LOL! x.x wah liew. then no need to rest again. ><

Money really makes the world go round man. Now i finally see clearly your purpose of befriending me. at least i'm NOT that dumb. HA HA HA.

i think old friends are the best. for the older you grow, the more people you meet, the higher tendency for things to go wrong. and i suddenly realise i've been meeting a LOT of wrong people nowadays. Zzz! never mind i survived anyway. just no more tramping. for if you does it again. i'm sure to make your life worse than hell.

if we're gonna continue this way. we'll be acquaintaince and then back to strangers. the only reason being, what i feel is no longer important to you. perhaps vice versa.maybe it doesn't matter anymore.

end off, I HAVE A BAD THROAT! thanks for the logenzes! at least it works (temporary) ;D LOL!till i finished it up. CAN'T wait for Friday. CHILL OUT TIME <3

& i will only ♥ you.

nice song. thought who was 阿肯 initially. x__x so it's Akon. haha! anyway, enjoy~ ;D


I know they wanna come and separate us
but they can't do us nothin
You're the one I want and I'ma continue lovin
Cause you're considered wifey and I'm considered husband
And I'ma always be there for you
我不管你用任何眼光看我 我都不会选择放弃
我要坚持到底 忽略那些冷言冷语
爱是如此珍贵 值得我们彼此相信
两颗心才越靠越近
And no one knows
Why Im into you
'Cause you'll never know
what its like to walk in our shoes
没人会懂 是我们的梦
懂再多困难只要牵手 就变得不同
Thats why we'll break through
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎怎么做
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Seems like every day that go by, things are gettin harder
Wanna be the one that give you the whole enchilada
'Cause I know what my baby like, I lean you on that Prada
You aint got to match with the shoes
我知道每一次的沟通 就会让我爱你更多
跟一次的拥抱 温暖让我不再怯懦
爱是真实的触摸 美好或相同
Keepin it always true
And no one knows
Why Im into you
'Cause you'll never know what it's like to walk in our shoes
没人会懂 是我们的梦
懂再多困难只要牵手 就变得不同
Thats why we'll break through
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎 怎么做
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
You are everything in my life, see the joy you bring
And aint no one I compare you to
And I know that you will never
walk away from me no matter what
And thats why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know
And I dont care what they say
Rap Wilber:
Be in my life with me
You know you my queen B
Show you the finer things in life and places you wanted to be
Its trips to Miami, rockin Tenjunge NYC
Party up at club Bling till 6 in da morning
Dont want yo body figure sexually
I wanna pop you figures annually, showing you security
You dont gotta worry B
Satisfaction guaranteed
You dont need another G
You can have it all in me
Eh, You like morphine ,you soothe me
Through the pain and the struggles, it gets hot, you cool me
Cuz You're a wifey quality qualified
Warranty you certified
You know how to get me high, hotter than a super ride
You know when you want it, you need it you know I got it
You know when you want me, you need you know I give it
So whenever in doubt, you can count on me
Whatever, its you be under my wing
Whenever you're down, you can put it on me
And wherever you go, you be rocking my ring
(Rap End)
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎 怎么做
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
I gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎 怎么做
I gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you

& i will only ♥ you.

back to square one. perhaps losing me means nothing. i just want you to be fine. would you be fine without me? i don't want to have to go through everything all over again. i'm tired. tired of waiting. will you show me some light to a direction where i can follow? for i will go berserk if i continue waiting at the original place.


i didn't know even waiting can hurt this bad. a wait with hope which didn't seem to come true. or perhaps never will. i need sleep. but it ain't easy..it ain't easy waiting for something that i can't be sure if it would blossom. needless to say, blossom into something i actually wanted.


can you tell me for sure? we are gonna blossom into something pretty. something to bring both of us through to our forever.


But. Can we? Can you? Can i?
i need to know.for even if you're not sure. i wouldn't have any reason to stay again.

& i will only ♥ you.

dead beat yesterday. it feels nice to see all of them again. at least we are ONE family. saw my beloved nephew and niece yesterday. they made my day. Aden was so happily playing with his Thomas and Friends toys. Ah ma and aunties cooked a splendid meal yesterday but i can't really eat much. sore throat soon >< i bet ah gong must be happy to see us gathering together some how. if he was there, he'd make some jokes that got all of us laughing for sure. IF...

after we finish praying, stayed around for a bit more then went home cause Mum gotta get to work. and i went home rotting. fell asleep somehow. only to wake up to a headache and painful throat. ._.

later need to go get my graduation attire already. hopefully Babe's free to go with me. if not have to go alone. D: can't believed i actually MISSED all the recommended timing. well, at most, i shall just not attend the ceremony. anyway, Mum's not free, Dad's working. Only child .__. never mind, i graduated anyway. ;D



Me with the <3 Aden's not looking!>< hahaha!Ning is such a good girl. smiles so happily la. :DD



Aden LOOKING innocent. HAHA! <3

At least they fill my dull day with a little colours. ;)


期待让人越来越沉溺

有谁和我一样

等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会

寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪

一个人好累

& i will only ♥ you.

passed by the train station today while i took bus home. memories of him flowed back. we used to go in Malaysia through the train. then while waiting for the time to board the train, he would buy sweets, bread or magazines for me. everything there remained unchanged. just that the person who brought me there would never be able to visit there again..reminds me of how i would just weep in the bus on the way to school a few months back.perhaps during those times, i should actually be happier. at least he's around. physically there. imy. if you could ever hear me say that.

i just don't know how long i can stand all the shyt anymore. people kept coming and going. perhaps i should be happy with the fact that at least there's a few who'd stay. but i would never know if those whom i wanted to be in my life forever would still be there. life's unpredictable. i'm replaceable.

the same old problem over again and again. be it friends, relationship, work. uhs whatever situation. i want to find solutions to the problems. but i guess i'm just going the wrong way. perhaps i'd soon get used to the life i'm leading. no directions. everyday all i know what i should do is w-o-r-k. for there's nothing else i could focus on anymore. graduation's coming. i'm not even happy. can't i just not go and get the cert another day. it's annoying. but at least nisey's accompanying me. mao mao and sista wanted to come. but their classes end kinda late that day. appreciates you guys taking time off to come :D nisey. i'll meet up with u first then we can go together :) mao mao better don't PON class huh and sista take ur time to come to SP. :) ask mao show you around. haha~

tomorrow's the hundredth day that i last met him.and still counting...



Everything's changed. treasure people around you who's worth treasuring. friends, family, loved ones. one day, they might just not be with you forever. take me for granted and i'll never ever appear in your life again..

& i will only ♥ you.

damn tired these few weeks la. always not enough sleep. got tonnes of work waiting to be done. i nvr meet Babe enough. nvr meet nisey, clar, jx and i nvr meet xav also. wah piangs. everyday OT. OT till i @.@ already la. D: can really fall asleep anytime la. x.x OH the only people i meet VERY frequently would be Sharon, Uncle Chua, Vince, Chris etc. x.x LOL! i'm glad they are my colleagues anyway la. other dept's sucky. *elks*


i want to SLEEP EARLIER! D:< but i got so used to sleeping late. x___x then keep late for work @.@ luckily got grace period. LOL! x.x


i've just gotten used to this kind of lifestyle. where you do possessed something, but you don't seem to possess it in real. or when you do actually feel something but what you felt now could only be triggered when you see it for yourself. aiya. forget it. random-ness. -.- Hmm.. the old song that kept ringing in my head.shall end the post off with this then.


the chorus goes like this...


你不在 当我最需要爱

你却不在

无尽等待像独白的难捱

你不在 高兴还是悲哀

你都不在

我受了伤害再偷偷好起来

你不在

& i will only ♥ you.

have been working so much OTs with sharon lately. almost die-d of fatigue la. LOL! everytime reach home around 9 or 10. bathe, online then to bed already. daily mundane routine. a cycle that repeats everyday. gosh.


went for the cycle count over at Alex's place to help out. i did the data entry with the girls at their side. seriously. office politics man. and from NOW on, i PROMISE i'll treasure my colleagues man! LOVE them to bits and pieces la. HP's office politics is like SO *%&$#*@&% la. G.O.O.D.N.E.S.S!woke up at 5 plus am then went for breakfast with sharon at the coffee shop near office. their bah chor mee nice sia! vry hmm.. 道地.haha i guess thats the word la. >< then stared at the computer screen and did data entry since morning. all the way till 6plus. waited for sharon to finish up her counts then finally we can GO HOME! waited at the stupid bus stop for like god-knows-how-long la. cause first two bus were frigging crowded. -.- we were like gonna cry already la. and sharon kept complaining that she stinks cause she perspire alot from the count. NO AIR-CON. lucky im in the office :x and she used up her less-than-one-mth-old HUGO BOSS perfume. x___x amazingly fast. LOL. >< home sweet home. and i pengs almost immediately.


woke up at 11 plus. went grocery shopping with mum. acc Babe to bugis to get the bag for her aunt. LOLS! wide variety to choose from o.o haha! we two @.@. anyway, mission accomplished. went around to ILUMA, the new shopping centre beside bugis village. the exterior is nice but the interior is like .___. normal dao.nonetheless it was kinda nice to visit. the entrance of ILUMA somehow reminds me of the grand cathay. cause it's HUGE and BULKY. only now did i realise something. cathay like to use BULKY DOORS. cineleisure's another one. x___x anyway home sweet home after that and here i am. blogging :D shall try to sleep earlier tonight. hehs :D


*at least i'm happy :)*

& i will only ♥ you.

i just realised ;

& i will only ♥ you.

Friday was kinda nice. Vince's treats to buffet at the Sakura Restaurant for lunch. A lot of good food. well, at least we enjoyed spending the times together. work is great. getting busier and busier but i'm glad i'm coping. there'd be more to come i heard .__." but i guess i'll be fine.


Spent the whole day yesterday stoning at home. x___x later Alex's coming over to celebrate Mothers' Day with mummy. don't know what we'll be getting for her later. She's F.U.S.S.Y la D:<


Kenneth went to HK! i also want D: then then! i HELP him TEND HIS FARM in FB.LOL! SO FUN! accept gifts here and there.:DD he's going to Disneyland over there.don't know if he can still find the keychain he bought me THE last last last time he went there or not. D: Hopefully can la huh :D then i'll be all smiles! LOL! :x


Vague vague VAGUE. i need to KNOW i exist and THEY'D NEED to know that as well. DO THEY? i guess not. for if they do, they wouldn't even try to come near. that day i was hearing "Everything" by Lee Hom. suddenly the lyrics struck me. it goes like this:


故事里的 起承转合
有一些忘记做了多少错误的选择


原来波折 才暗示着 该走的方向
指引你我来到这一刻


就算别人都说 我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃


Cause You're My Everything
就一个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天 永远从此刻开始算起
你的爱是我的Everything


辽阔天际 巧合相遇 有多少机率
多少烟火 坠落无痕迹
因为幸福 没有捷径 难免要绕道
不被看好越是要走到


就算别人都说 我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃


你就是Everything
就这个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意 所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything


Cause You're My Everything
就这个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天 永远从此刻开始算起


你就是Everything
就如这个原因 我会永远记住这种感觉
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意 所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything


such a sweet song. :) Now who is YOUR everything? think it through. :)

& i will only ♥ you.

was super busy the entire day. x.x and and ystd met Babe and told her i changed my blog's url and she was like "i just update your new link not long ago leh" LOL! but that's cause she only updated after i informed her for quite some time lor. .___. HAHAH so this time round, i decided to log into her acc and relink myself. ROFL! so wierd. .___.


i just heard nise's back with dennis. haha no matter what's your decision, you'll have my support. :D and of course i won't be mad at you. ^^~ for if that's the case then i should even be madder at myself in de first place. lol! that's what sistas are for. :) <3


practically either busy or bored to death at work. Monday's gotta OT = $$ and sharon's gonna OT as well cause both of us need to complete the report for submission. wahahha! and finally my lappy is working fine and i don't have to go back and forth using two coms at two desks beside each other. .___.


happened to find my old journal and i read through what i wrote last time when i was in Sec sch. saw alot of how i felt when i was in the past relationship that lasted the longest. (which is not LONG at all .___.) anyway, felt kinda silly and funny. haha! not bad to think back of those days. well, can't deny that it's a part of growing up as well, can i? and i guess the relationship allowed me to see a lot of things in life more clearly as well. and i'm glad i've learn and benefitted from it :)

-yawns- i'm gonna L.O.V.E... :D

& i will only ♥ you.