passed by the train station today while i took bus home. memories of him flowed back. we used to go in Malaysia through the train. then while waiting for the time to board the train, he would buy sweets, bread or magazines for me. everything there remained unchanged. just that the person who brought me there would never be able to visit there again..reminds me of how i would just weep in the bus on the way to school a few months back.perhaps during those times, i should actually be happier. at least he's around. physically there. imy. if you could ever hear me say that.

i just don't know how long i can stand all the shyt anymore. people kept coming and going. perhaps i should be happy with the fact that at least there's a few who'd stay. but i would never know if those whom i wanted to be in my life forever would still be there. life's unpredictable. i'm replaceable.

the same old problem over again and again. be it friends, relationship, work. uhs whatever situation. i want to find solutions to the problems. but i guess i'm just going the wrong way. perhaps i'd soon get used to the life i'm leading. no directions. everyday all i know what i should do is w-o-r-k. for there's nothing else i could focus on anymore. graduation's coming. i'm not even happy. can't i just not go and get the cert another day. it's annoying. but at least nisey's accompanying me. mao mao and sista wanted to come. but their classes end kinda late that day. appreciates you guys taking time off to come :D nisey. i'll meet up with u first then we can go together :) mao mao better don't PON class huh and sista take ur time to come to SP. :) ask mao show you around. haha~

tomorrow's the hundredth day that i last met him.and still counting...



Everything's changed. treasure people around you who's worth treasuring. friends, family, loved ones. one day, they might just not be with you forever. take me for granted and i'll never ever appear in your life again..

& i will only ♥ you.