那天和你说分手，你头也不回，不问我为什么。
直到昨天还在等待你回头，告诉我那只是场噩梦。
可是你却没有回应，没有挽留。

直到现在我终于了解了，
你一直以来对我的爱，也只是你怜悯的疼爱。
而不是我所以为的天长地久。

我们曾许下的一辈子，可能也只是我的一厢情愿。
现在我终于看清了，也了解了旁人一直以来的忠告
说你是多么不属于我的。

我的任性绑住了你，所以从今以后我不再任性。
让你自由的离去，是我最后能为你做的。
从今以后，你是你， 我是我。
可能你不在乎。
但这一次， 是真的。
我会忘记，不会在期待你的爱。

& i will only ♥ you.

& i will only ♥ you.

went tampines to catch harry potter with babe just now. long long movie. quite interesting at some parts. well, Dumbledore did die x.x let's see how it goes in the last movie then. i find the part where Ron and Hermionie got together quite interesting :) the girl who was SOOOO infatuated with Ron is like erms.. a little too OVER, i guess. -.- anyway, nice movie :D after movie, went uniqlo to get a hoodie and met nicholas on the way back. hahah. he was like complaining he never watch movie for duno how long. and i thought we just watched transformer together not quite long ago? x.x'' LOL

went ION yesterday. it's like so .. crowded. T_______T didn't walk around much. went to get some stuff then went off. ate dessert at sweet slice of life. :DDDDDD favourite favourite. maybe i'll tempt someone with the photos. hohoho! XD

went hortpark with sharon that day. the scenery was DAMN NICE. i didn't know such beautiful scenery surrounds my office environment. even Mummy agree that i looked happier when i worked there. well, of course then. despite some other factors though. the nice sunset definitely made me feel happier :D then then we saw BIG DOGS. 3 actually. golden retrievers. beautifulllll~ XD kinda huge though. but pretty :)

sorry to JX for not being able to make time to attend his event D: he booked the table for like 200-300 lors. D: sighs. anyways, must wait for kun to online then he can teach me some stuff. hohoho :D but i think he went work T____T wait till tml then.

& when i'm happy, i smile. :) hees

& i will only ♥ you.

比想象中更痛 你真的没回头

我命令眼泪不许失控

回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中

我就有责任让它值得被珍重


谢谢你曾让我难过

谢谢我没有想太多

当爱情左盼右顾的时候


我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢

再勇敢的站着 找回光和热

面对你的时候 我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折

是美的


心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲

我没有时间不知所措

你温柔的双手 本就不属于我

又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢


我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢

再勇敢的站着 找回光和热

面对你的时候 我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折 是美的


你眼泪都笑了

谁还会哭呢

来不及完美的

就唱首骊歌

想起你的时候

我不是卑微的

反而我没有遗憾

因为我已爱过你 深深的




当眼泪都能笑了的时候， 我放弃了。。。

& i will only ♥ you.

下雨了 站在玻璃门里头
并没有 总是挂念着我
你带着雨伞来接我
夜晚了 只剩老板跟我
像从前你抽着烟皱眉头
不知怎么安抚太任性的我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去 雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
手写的留言对象
已经不会是我

停雨了 不必再躲雨了
已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走
太晚了 只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车
常常会半路熄火的后座
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去 雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
长长的简讯对象
已经不会是我
走在湿漉漉红砖道上
沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难
也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点
该几点回到家
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你再也不疼我以后
已经过去 雨伞和雨衣
不会再保护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了
对不起长大太慢
害你遗失了我
抱歉 让你白费了这么多

& i will only ♥ you.

apicture speak a thousand words.i have 3 here. so it says alot already. i wanna DREAM OF WEWE tonight!! :B









THANK YOU! :D

& i will only ♥ you.

met up with Clar and gang just now!!! :DDD she surprised me laaaa. i tot i was only meeting her. end up she pa kak with ah yi, ring & popo! LOL! end up all came. weeeeeeeeee. it's like another gathering again :) that's when virtuality came into real life :D and we met upon fate and ended up as real friends. :D


A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU! :DDD and i'm real glad to know you guys :D

THANKS CLAR FOR THE SURPRISEEE!!! and hor i will make sure the cactus dun die. x.x LOL!! <3333 :D

then when i reach home. i immediately saw a picture of Babe and me. LOL! then i ask mummy if babe came just now. LOL! and she said yah den tell me she even brought me a cake. HOHOHO! then i saw le i was like so "WAHHHHHHH!!" got chocolate xD LOLOLOL! *touched* then on the cake there 3 pieces of white chocolate mar? *edited: its actually OREO. SO IT's OREO CHEESECAKE.GOSH! dajie jiu shi dajie. so INNOVATIVE!!LOL!* not sure. x.x which says happy bdae amelia. xD HOHOHO it's a lil blur but i still can understand!!hehs. :DDDDD THANKS BABE FOR THE EFFORT!!! then Aunty was there when i reach home and she gave me ang bao xD hohoho!!! ^^V happy happy~

then then just now i went msn, di sent me her and chiabi's wishes. DAMN NICE!! chiabi did powerpoint slides. LOL!



SINCERE THANKS TO WHAT YOU GUYS DID FOR ME! and THANKS FOR ALL THE WISHES sprawled across my FACEBOOK! MUCH APPRECIATED! :DDDD <3 YOU GUYS TONNES :DDDD

& i will only ♥ you.

firstly, thanks for all the wishes people :D appreciated. ^^

secondly, i'm still at era with sista, mao and vin. ._. @@ tired die~

thirdly, i feel sleepy already ._____.''

meet clar later!! clar if you're online and read this later, u will noe why i wake up so late alrdy. ._. cuz sleeping LOL! :x

i asked di to get a ribbon to wrap arnd herself then transport to SG. LOL nice present :D

@@~

SLEEEEPPPPP xD



P/S I'M HOMEEEE!! @08:27am

& i will only ♥ you.

TADAH~


it's in HEART SHAPE! :DDD hehs. <3


just now went home straight after work. told mummy a white lie saying i will reach AMK at 6.45 so that she'll leave house earlier then i can sneak home and keep the cake till Alex reach tonight. wakaka. managed to keep her in the dark xD so when she was on the phone i went to get the cake frm the fridge then with Alex's help we managed to throw in the surprise for her! xD weeeeeeeeee wakaka. she was super duper happy laaaaas. :) we sang the birthday song so suddenly. hur hur. she was shock la. LOL! and and the cake from swiss bake is simply delicious!!! xD gosh. to think she was still complaining earlier on when we were at ah ma's house visiting Uncle Jason. hahaha! anyways, celebrated her birthday. :D happy happy happy! was msn-ing with Clar and Di. and they told my mum happy birthday. i CONVEYED ur msges kays. then my mum was like 'O.O? orh thank you.' then gave me that shocked look. LOL! :x


i guess i haven't felt so happy for quite some time already. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM. <3 :) *so long as you are happy, i'd be too.* night filled with love and laughter. not by anyone else but mummy. :D toodles~

& i will only ♥ you.

& i will only ♥ you.

i hope.
hope everything will be back to when he hasn't left me. so that nobody else will too. back to those time when every new year i see him, cracking jokes, talking to me.

for if everything goes back, everyone will be fine and healthy. he left us, but don't u leave us as well. for if you do, i might as well just vanish from the surface of the earth.

is it unlucky? is it meant to be? or perhaps, it is that cause we always learn how to cherish after we've lost something. cause at least then we'll know, we'll sense. how important you actually held a place in my heart.

i hope not.

& i will only ♥ you.

think i finish my work too soon. Zzz uber boredom. thank god i can use msn xD cannot play audi~ D: play FB play until nothing to play already. -CRIES- can die sia. D:
Wewe scared of thunder and lightning!! hur hur.. so cute lehs. xD I'M NOT SCARED! ROFL! yesterday brandon's dog ate up the KFC meant for his mum. LOL! then he say his dog is a MONSTER ROFL! offered to give him to me so that he would eat up my entire house. ._. toot

anywayzxc, i like the new song 借我一辈子 by 曹格. damn nice manzxc. sweet song :D sweet sweet sweet! is it raining outside now? i wonder. hmm.. if only i can go back home and sleep right now. D: i think he fell asleep while coaxing wewe about the thunderstorms since he feels drowsy as well. like since 1pm or maybe earlier? ._. LOL. *oh he didn't fall asleep :x LOL!* remember help your mum buy fruits later, patient! xD

i also want MC! then can stay at home xD luckily tmr's friday and WEEKEND IS NEAR xD
then i can sleep late late. wake up late late. woooooooots! :x rdm rdm rdm! cuz i'm bored stiff ._. tmr tmr tmr! weekends faster come please :D

supposed to go jogging with my colleagues. now rain so heavy. HOW HOW HOW! D: another day liaos D: and and i wanna eat :x missed lunch just now. x______x hungry liaos! wuuuuu~

if rain then no need jog lurh. ._.'' sighs~

i told myself not to, i told myself i dont care. i told myself it doesnt matter, i told myself not to bother. and i think i did it.i don't know if it doesn't mean anythng to me anymore or is it that, i am already so used to it all that i can feel nth. nth at all. numb.

& i will only ♥ you.

i did it. fast and clean. not even friends anymore. 我就这么果断地做出抉择. virtuality. he was my best friend, best playmate for the past half year. even in steps. but now since we've both changed, let's just forget it. lara won't be with jin anymore. :) virtuality. i've clicked on it without thinking. is there a break-up button for me to click back in the real life? and everything would be as simple as that. not that that's how much i treasure a relationship. but when people changes, and you can't really catch up, it won't do any good to both parties. i told him that he could find anyone he like to couple up with now that i'm no longer the obstacle.

i'd do the same in real. if you just say the word. for when a heart's dead, nothing will be left anymore. be glad, it'd be a new start :)


if only there's the break button in real. if it were all so easy.

& i will only ♥ you.

一个人　眺望碧海和蓝天　
在心里面　那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越　
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝　因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远　
不计画太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐地看每一天　Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解　
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗　
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙　
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放　
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

yah, the happiness you brought is limited.
and yes, when i first saw you, i wanted to see all the stories untold.
you've build a wall shielding yourself.
but whether or not if i can overcome this,
i don't know. really.
maybe it's cause i've given up. given up in what i used to believe could come true.

& i will only ♥ you.