Kismet :)

Monday ~~

2009-12-21T10:26:00.002+08:00

Xmas is coming! so is new year. haha~ brand new year. Just in time to let me forget all the shit that has happened this year and the year before.

To all those who have been by my side, Thank you.
To those who have hurt me for their own advantages, Thank you as well. For without the precious lesson, i wouldn't have known what Friends were supposed to do to one another. So, Thank you.

it's time to make some resolutions. Sometimes you don't reap what you sow and i can't exactly just not help cause it doesn't put me to an advantage. isn't it? Sure i missed those times we have fun. but i guess it's time. i'm gonna withdraw slowly. it gets kinda depressing when whatever i've done for people isn't really being appreciated. perhaps you guys don't show or perhaps i didn't do enough. But well, it's all over. Time to get back to the real world. It shall be something that i do when i'm dead bored or when Di's online, i guess.

i can't wait for BF to be back in SG! we gonna plan for BKK! (: and i shall have no time for all those shit. (: Xmas eve with Babe!! alvin and the chipmunks ! oh! and the chipettes too xD cute!! ^.^

made up my mind. i miss you !

2009-12-11T11:02:00.002+08:00

bf went Europe already ): 3 looooooong weeks without him. i'm gonna stone at home xD till he comes back. lalala ~ back to audi these few days. Di's SPM ended already. can play together le! feel so tired now. can't get to sleep yesterday night so went to play audi. Kismet gonna level up to 17 le. (: thanks to those who played with me yesterday night. lols! yawns ~ so im super sleepy at work now ._.

wonders why he hasn't text me yet. don't know if he got off the plane already x.x wonders if his hotel has wireless ._. sighs ~ it's only Day One of his Europe trip manzxc. 3 weeks faster pass...

Oh and i've made up my mind in what course to take up in Uni already. guess UOL would be a better choice bah. study part time work full time xD tired die me :o but nonetheless, i still wanna give it a try. hopefully i'll be able to juggle well. bf's been offered the course in Aerospace Engineering i guess. must tell him to hurry and choose his modules le. ah ma's been asking me when am i going to get into a Uni. now i've finally decided. hurhur xD can tell her this saturday lurh. application starts in January for the bridging course. hopefully i can exempt some modules off since that's what i major in SP xD

i wanna go BANGKOK! SHOPPING SPREE weeeeeeeeeees. wait till i save up ._. maybe will go around February 2010. <3 xD i miss those times in KL! wanna go shopping again soon ~ BABE!!! let's go BANGKOK! xD hurhur. weeeeeees! LOL taiwan trip can postpone a little more. xD perhaps during the holidays after my first year in school bah x_x lalala ~ <3

alright back to work again. (: hope today ends sooner. wanna go home and get a good rest (:

dinner-s 湾仔, Jack's Place & Mini Steamboat Delight

2009-11-02T23:14:00.007+08:00

Monday blues~~~ work wasn't going on as smoothly cause the stupid printer broke down .___. have to re-print all the documents from the photocopy machine cause the other printer is down as well. DUH! that old printer can be thrown away already laaaahs. -.-

so after work, went to Etude at PS with Sharon to get some facial masks and her lip gloss. after that wanted to find something for dinner but can't seem to find anything nice at PS so she suggested dinner at J8. so there we went... haha! her voice sexy la today. almost voice-less alrdy manzxc. sounds like ah gua hahaha! she called me while she was at the toilet and i went to withdraw money from ATM to check where i was. then she told me that while she was on the phone with me, a girl looked at her with the bizarre look like what is she doing here, in a ladies? LOL ! cause of her voice la. LOL ! and she won't see the doc or eat the medicine -.-

anyway... dinner at 湾仔 was great! the ice teh was nice. it's like ice teh float. yes float! with ice cream LOL !

yummy yummy~

my seafood bake rice XD

sharon's beef hor fun

lalala~ Went to Jack's Place on Sat with bf. so warm ._. perhaps cause of the hotplates there x.x''

Steak with fish!

steak! XD

nice nice lobster soup~

Sunday~
dinner time bf suggested parkway's mini steamboat delight at the foodcourt. yummy yummy tomyam soup they have there. XD lalala~ you won't waste the food there cause it's not like a buffet type where you eat at other places. :D

yes. that's salmon sashimi at the steamboat store. nice! :D

Before.Tomyam and Chicken soup!鸳鸯锅！

After XD yum yum! :D

i had a great weekend! :D

Marina Barrage & City Square Mall!!

2009-10-29T23:01:00.012+08:00

Marina Barrage on 25th Oct 2009

met BF early in the morning. He brought WEWE !! FINALLY! :D so happy to see wewe! she's very very very guai ! never even barked at me even though it was the first time she see me. hurhur.. i love her!! :D and and she let me carry her on the car and pet her! but she kept sneezing on me la ><'' BF saes cuz the air-con on the car is blowing directly on her that's why she kept sneezing LOL ! x.x'' but she's so cute! and and she looks so kelian that day cause she was so happy about us bringing her out that day but that day rained a little when we met up. So she was like abit sian. then kept popping her head out when she hear noise from outside de car. super cute >< hurhur.

SEE! that's her popping her head out to check the weather! LOL ! so cute!! ><

kelian-ing.. looking out of the window x.x *sayang wewe* :D

BF driving~ lalala~

the view from top of Marina Barrage~ Nice! nice wind, nice scenery, nice Companion!! :D <3

Wewe in a bag~ alot of passerbys saes she's cute when we went over to east coast to have our breakfast as well :D

the bridge connecting to the top of marina barrage XD we saw kite flying there! =O

that's my enjoyable trip to Marina Barrage!! :D

City Square Mall
took leave specially cause babe's having her off and we wanted to go Anchorvale's swimming complex cause my colleague Evelyn strongly recommend the place. there's jacuzzi some more XD but ended up we didn't really get to go cause the weather's quite bad. raining on and off. .___. so we ended up getting to city square mall, the new mall in Farrer Park. It's said to be one of the largest mall in Sg wor. So we went there. it was quite big :o hahaha but it wasn't fully open cause it's not the officially opening yet. A lot of restaurants .______. lol! so babe and i went into Manhattan Fish Market for lunch cum dinner XD i like their flaming prawns XD

Fried Mushroom!! tasted like Swensens. eat when hot! Babe says there's sort of a taste when it gets cold ><''

My Flaming Prawns!! :D platter for one~ i like the rice there. tasty ^^~

Babe's Fish and Chip with Cherry Snapper. XD at first i thought Snapper as in Snapple the drink =x LOL! both of us laugh dao~ x.x'' den i rmbr its the snapper fish. Snapple is spelt with L-E and not E-R LOL!!!!! laughdieme HAHHA!

Finally my Coke Float. nice~ :D lalala~

Finally after the sumptious lunch cum dinner, we went off to Bugis in search for the present lalala~

i'm a happy girl

IKEA's MEATBALL! :D ~

2009-10-24T17:14:00.003+08:00

weeeeeeee! kinda sleepy but can't seem to fall asleep for unknown reasons x.x woke up so early everyday laaaaa. cycle count wasn't too bad today. Chia buy Mac's HASHBROWN for me sio!!! wah seh. LOL! erm well cause he don't usually treat us eat de la. but today he bought for us girls in the office wor~ hohoho! =x okay la i guess basically now all of us are getting along better lurh so its okie. OH YA! in case i forget, PEOPLE READING PLEASE TAKE NOTE of below!!

on Thursday night while i was walking towards KFC @ Harbourfront center with 2 of my female colleagues after work. (somewhere along the bridge that connects Seah Im Food Centre with Harbourfront centre) then this short hair in her early 30's, i guess? she walked up to the three of us and tell us this story of her not having sufficient cash to take transport (Cab, i guess? i don't think you need 20bucks to take a bus) and says that she has 2 crying baby in the cab or smthng so she urgently needs to get money for the transport fare so that she can meet her husband who was, then stucked at Custom. she walked up to us asking if we speak Chinese ( DUH! PLEASE LA DEH, ALL 3 of us ONE LOOK and you know we are chinese ._.) and during the conversation she spoke some english here and there FLUENTLY trying to describe the critical situation to us. (then WHAT's the point in asking if we spoke chinese in the first place?) DUH!anyway, if you're thinking. Nope we didnt lend her the money which she claimed that she will return to us at 11pm on the same night when she was talking to us at 8plus 9pm? (so she borrowed money from ppl and expect them to wait at Habourfront for 2hrs for her la?) DUH!._______. seriously. -.- Alright, perhaps you're thinking that the three of us arent kind-hearted enough to lend a helping hand. We were just being wary. Look what happened to 仁慈Charity show. even though 20bucks not enough for her to keep a horse as a pet overseas. But still, why should we be cheated of 20bucks for nothing?

Now if you're just wondering "What if it's true?" that she really needed the money at that time? looking at all the sweat and her anxious look? i'll tell you why it's not true. Reason being, among the 3 of us, one of her Friend encountered it once. And how the person found out that it was all a scam? simply because the person really believed that the CHEAT would come back at the appointed time to return the money. This friend is kind-hearted alright? just that the world has too many other evil minds. SO PEOPLE. LOOK OUT. don't just believe whatever these Cheats are saying. im afraid they will come up with different excuses to cheat. well, perhaps 20bucks is nothing to u really. its not like it's 20k or something. BUT WHAT IF. WHAT IF everyone starts believing? and more and more people will try to cheat their way through. then what would happen to those who really need money? right? Just beware. don't fall as a victim. INNOCENT AND NAIVELY.

above was merely a personal encounter. perhaps you've seen more? i don't know. but that's my experience. sharing it so that hopefully no one else around me would get conned.

P.S i know it's totally irrelavant. but i♥MEATBALLS from IKEA. XD

New Moon~ Twilight's Saga

2009-10-17T14:43:00.001+08:00

The Twilight Saga: New Moon Trailer in HD

Trailer Park | MySpace Videos

omgosh! look at what i've found! the preview to New Moon, Twilight's Saga. i wanna watch it!! but its like only available in States around mid nov. which means its gonna be shown in theatres in Sg at a even later date! D: can't wait!!! :D die die must watch movie~ HAHA!

new blog skin xD

2009-10-16T15:22:00.002+08:00

lalala~ i love the smilies which i took much effort to search for to input in the tagboard XD hehs.

freaking busy these few days. esp today. so much work waiting to be done. yet i'm still here to post. ROFL =x *re-opening of the blog* XD

everything has been good so far. and i'm loving it :D weeeeeeeee~ tag me tag me !!! :D

09 / 09 / 09 !!!

2009-09-09T11:23:00.002+08:00

haven't been blogging for quite some time already. sick at home D: lucky the fever's gone. think i'm not coughing for now. left the toot flu x.x got to go back to work tml lurh.. think they must be real busy today but i can't help >< chams.. slept away the whole day yesterday =x

lalala~ today's date is sort of unique XD and and i just received Babe's text! she starts her attachment today le! gosh. rofl so fast x.x wuuuuuu~ im gonna miss her. D: maybe weekend can find her for dinner XD since she works at wisma. lalala~

work two more days then weekend le! :DDDDD mummy's going Malaysia i think. then i will stone at home x.x'' baaaaaaaaaahs. i wonder how did BF's work go. o.o shld be quite busy lurh. XD i wanna go KL!!!!!!!! D: okies lurh update till here. wanna continue watching my DVD XD slack slack! =x

P.S I MISS MY BF (SEE I POST IT HERE) ROFL!!!! :x

LONG LONG POST!

2009-08-31T15:30:00.008+08:00

muahaha! super happy these few days. ROFL! played audi during the weekend XD and cpl di. LOL!!!! so now officially known as --Piglet-- no more LARA XD muahaha ;x then we play quite alot of CLUB XD see see below for pictures. MUAHAHA ;x

US IN MICKEY MINNIE SUIT! XD *but ahyi dey all say it's minnie suit. cuz both suit has ribbons!* :x

SEE! told you our club dance is ahem.. not bad deeee!! XD

in cpl dance!!! XD need to practice for wedding!!! =x

we even play club dance!!! :DDD

cuz di say his laopo vry lonely when we dance ballroom. SO.. i got myself a LAOGONG! TADAH! XD laogong very fierce narh x.x but it's cause wan to protect me. so i understand ^^ *to the rest: DON'T BULLY ME. OR ELSE MY LAOGONG....* heh heh heh. XD

muahaha. went to bugis shaw to catch the proposal yesterday with Babe. SO NICE!!! it's damn funny XD hehs. but it's a sweet ending. *Awwwwws* simply ♥ and and SHAW's POPCORN is simply FANTASTIC! ♥♥♥!! ;D and we brought food in XD LOLOLOL!

FINAL DESTINATION 4 ♥♥♥ XD

i ♥ ...

ICHIBAN!

2009-08-28T22:00:00.003+08:00

met babe at AMK HUB just now. went to have our dinner at ichiban :D it was a long long queue.. waited since 6.50pm and we got into the restaurant at 7.30pm? gosh.. didn't realise i waited for more than half an hour? x.x kept looking towards the escalator to see when Babe will reach. HAHA. Sg is really a small place. saw some other people there as well. and yet, after dinner went to look for Salem at G2 but he wasn't there. LOL! talk about coincidences. haha! freaking full after dinner so went to stroll around. hahaha! then went home, downstairs to chat before going home. :D

gonna watch the proposal with Babe on Sunday. =D can't wait. supposed to watch it today but didn't think we could make it in time. well, i guess its lucky? haha. gonna clear up my room tml ^^ finally it's the weekend! weeeeeee!!

had the staff meeting today. freaking pissed these few days cuz of the two old people in the office. aiya, whatever laaaahs. can't be bothered already. just continue doing my work. anyway i don't intend to stay there like forever? duh -.- so generally still coping fine. & i'm not unhappy for no reason. they don't wanna help, fine. then don't ask me stuff when i'm pissed la. end up still wanna say i have bad temper. it's because of what you old people did which made me angry and yet want me to talk to you and act like i'm all happy? sorry. but i'm not that fake. maybe i should learn. learn to smile even though i feel like slamming all documents on the table and ask where were you guys when i needed help? whatever, whatever. doesn't matter. anyway, it's the weekend. i should just forget it. anyway, i forget unhappy things fast. so fast that i'm too forgiving for people to take me for granted. personal life is like this, career as well. sighs.. Vince didn't really come to the main point why we are not satisfied with the 2 oldies doing nothing everytime and act like they are damn busy. forwarders are suckers as well. but in the very least, the other people are fine and i can cope with my jobscope. i shall just do my things and ignore those oldies. we probably have age gap. too wide to be closed. HAH!

weekendddddd here i come!!!! i just wanna relax and sleep! oh and what i saw today made me feel that i was extremely stupid in the past but i managed to get out of the stupidity. half a year. it's enough.

trust, have to be earned.

Everytime.

2009-08-27T13:35:00.003+08:00

bored at work. don't know why. but i simply don't have the mood to work today. totally sucks. meeting ltr. hohoho. we shall see. am getting bored. guess i wanna take up degree next year. SIM or uniSIM. Hmm. guess its safer to ask around. and i don't even know what course i wanna take up yet. Zzz..

i want to go homeeeeeee. D:

nightmare. go away!

2009-08-25T11:00:00.002+08:00

first day of 7th month. NIGHTMARE. -.- and i mean literally. scared the wits out of me. car crash. gosh. but it's just a nightmare. THANK GOD. i guess i wanted to watch final destination too much lurh. -.- cuz what i dreamt of was the ability that i could foresee, a flashback of the car that im on, crashing. GOODNESS GRACIOUS. that feeling sucked. so i sort of asked my friend. who knows who's that friend of mine. GOODNESS. and i can even remember WHERE it was at the point of crashing. somewhere NEAR my place. the feeling of the car going down the slope was so real. it's like taking a roller coaster ride when it goes DOWN. seriously. though i don't remember since when was that slope as steep. nightmare -.- then mummy came to wake me up already. THANK GOD again. if not, im sure gonna be late for work for not being able to wake up -.- *spooky*

vince de boss is not here for this week until thursday, which means we all can have slight freedom. hahaha! even though short. but still :D he went for Bali trip with his wife, how shiok.. i also wanna go overseas. sighs.

i wish, i wish.. for everyone around me to be happy. no matter what's gonna happen. or what has already happened.

fortune cookies sayyy

2009-08-18T14:59:00.002+08:00

& i don't ever wanna lose this ability :D

简单就是美 ; hehs :p

horoscope looks quite good today. Hmm but is it true? o.o

but one thing doesn't change.

that is ;

Work is still B-O-R-I-N-G.

HAH! :p

P.S di get well soon okays? then can sit for ur SPM trials. ><

I MISS ..

WEWE! D:

i'm super duper happy! no monday blues!!

2009-08-17T15:55:00.003+08:00

hohoho! no monday bluess. NO OT. cuz sharon went to sleep at like 3am? watch 命中 with her sisters. LOL pro-ness. thank god i caught it earlier LOL. i don't want become panda lorrrr. =x LOL! was fb-ing with evelyn cause she got the blues. i told her i have the red! LOL! -.- simi wako. no shipment to do also. hur hur. lalala~ happy happy.

went to watch Overheard with Babe ystd. not bad worz. then before the movie starts we saw the credits. then i saw Jack Neo was one of the executive producers we was like o.o hahaha! kay la, we knew he venture overseas but didn't know he could co-produce a 年度巨片 in HK? LOL. before the movie started, we saw the trailer for final destination. OMGzxc disgusting lehs. =x then i ask someone if he still want to watch with me or not. cuz ltr i shout in the hmm.. theatre. LOL! =x

then after the movie, i went home and continued watching my dvd happily. 我的帅管家 is really a nice show!!! ALL THANKS TO CLAR! <3><'' but it's really NICEEEE :D the male lead looks kinda different in the drama as compared to when he acts in My Absolute Boyfriend. LOL more Shuai in 我的帅管家. hahah! XD

i'm happy because everyone around me or not is happy as far as i know. and that is enough, i guess. sometimes letting go is the best solution even if the effect is not immediate. it's gooood to be HAPPY! :DDDD

CONFIRMATION! should i or should i not?

2009-08-13T14:05:00.003+08:00

lalalas~ finally CONFIRMED! XD Vince dragggggggg so long lurhs for my confirmation. D: then then the date still dare to put 16th June, the actual date i was supposed to be confirmed. cause he was super tied down by another acc's project. D: but well at last! :D

happy working here. XD and the feedback was good but i still have alot more to learn bahs hehs.
happy happy~

Hmm.. should i be happy o.o i don't know lehs. is that the answer that i wanted? HMM... 顺其自然 bahs XD wewe not there. D: no more pictures recently. i miss wewe lurh. D: kenneth oso miss wewe lehs.. D: wonder when she will go back? i wan more photos!!!! XD kekes. someone see that??? photosssssssss pleaseeeee. XD lalala~

HMM should i or not? x.x'' yawns. x.x sleepy at work liaozxc. 谁来救救我啊 D: wuuuuuuu..

home sweet home~

2009-08-11T13:05:00.000+08:00

finally back home!!!!!!! :DDDD
<3 the weather there. <3 the food and frutis there. oh mannnnn i just <3 the place.

but still, there's no place like home :D

weeeeeeeeeeeeets <33

ot : On-Time or Over-Time?

2009-08-05T21:18:00.002+08:00

past 9pm and i'm still in the office. tired. worked more than 12 hours today. thought about a lot of stuff. and i recall the scene so familiar to the lyrics of the song i posted earlier on.

停雨了不必再躲雨了
已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走
太晚了只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车常常会半路熄火的后座

sighs. perhaps i'm just too tired. guess i'm gonna sleep early tonight.

whatever. i wanna just forget about these weariness.

today felt like a SUNNY and warm Saturday!

2009-08-04T23:03:00.001+08:00

HOHOHO kept shoppingzxc and workingzxc. worn myself out .___.'' & most imptly, my PHONE can't die or else i'd die too x.x'' die of boredom. LOL! someone's going to PHUKET LOR. RELAX LEHS. somemore programmes all planned out. *envious* LOLOLOL! everyone has moved on, so have i. :D bell married in steps!! but i nvr get to watch! TOOT HIM. tell him i wanna watch ppl married in STEPS le mar. D:<

haihs. time FLIES. seriously. sharon and i kept thinking that way. LOL! that way's better anyway. cause pay seem to comes in faster XD audi-ed till a little sian. so long never went in alreadyzxc. lalala~ every weekend wanna slack oso canot. *CRIES* this weekend keep getting drag out of bed and had to rush to prepare myself to get out of the house. @@ shopping with sharon on sunday. she text me at like 9am? there goes my sweet dream. but well, at least shopping was fun! XD

and i wanna SLACKKKKKKKKKK :D

don't know why. but today felt like those days when i was back in poly. warm sun. went home from school in the afternoon XD i miss those days suddenly. when i don't have to think about anything except grades. just seems like i'm back in the past. when i was alot happier. :D

对你的爱，就到这里。

2009-07-31T13:54:00.003+08:00

那天和你说分手，你头也不回，不问我为什么。
直到昨天还在等待你回头，告诉我那只是场噩梦。
可是你却没有回应，没有挽留。

直到现在我终于了解了，
你一直以来对我的爱，也只是你怜悯的疼爱。
而不是我所以为的天长地久。

我们曾许下的一辈子，可能也只是我的一厢情愿。
现在我终于看清了，也了解了旁人一直以来的忠告
说你是多么不属于我的。

我的任性绑住了你，所以从今以后我不再任性。
让你自由的离去，是我最后能为你做的。
从今以后，你是你，我是我。
可能你不在乎。
但这一次，是真的。
我会忘记，不会在期待你的爱。

fish & fish LOL! :x

2009-07-30T12:38:00.003+08:00

PARTY WORLD TONIGHT!

& now i realised how i've passed those days without you.

they made it easier for me to do so.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

P.S LAUGHING AT FISH & FISH NOW. LOL! :x

~ Hermione & Ron ~

2009-07-26T19:27:00.004+08:00

went tampines to catch harry potter with babe just now. long long movie. quite interesting at some parts. well, Dumbledore did die x.x let's see how it goes in the last movie then. i find the part where Ron and Hermionie got together quite interesting :) the girl who was SOOOO infatuated with Ron is like erms.. a little too OVER, i guess. -.- anyway, nice movie :D after movie, went uniqlo to get a hoodie and met nicholas on the way back. hahah. he was like complaining he never watch movie for duno how long. and i thought we just watched transformer together not quite long ago? x.x'' LOL

went ION yesterday. it's like so .. crowded. T_______T didn't walk around much. went to get some stuff then went off. ate dessert at sweet slice of life. :DDDDDD favourite favourite. maybe i'll tempt someone with the photos. hohoho! XD

went hortpark with sharon that day. the scenery was DAMN NICE. i didn't know such beautiful scenery surrounds my office environment. even Mummy agree that i looked happier when i worked there. well, of course then. despite some other factors though. the nice sunset definitely made me feel happier :D then then we saw BIG DOGS. 3 actually. golden retrievers. beautifulllll~ XD kinda huge though. but pretty :)

sorry to JX for not being able to make time to attend his event D: he booked the table for like 200-300 lors. D: sighs. anyways, must wait for kun to online then he can teach me some stuff. hohoho :D but i think he went work T____T wait till tml then.

& when i'm happy, i smile. :) hees

劉力揚 - 眼淚笑了

2009-07-25T00:10:00.003+08:00

比想象中更痛你真的没回头

我命令眼泪不许失控

回忆不跟你走都挤在我心中

我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过

谢谢我没有想太多

当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢

再勇敢的站着找回光和热

面对你的时候我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折

是美的

心碎成了沙漠就快开凿绿洲

我没有时间不知所措

你温柔的双手本就不属于我

又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢

再勇敢的站着找回光和热

面对你的时候我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折是美的

你眼泪都笑了

谁还会哭呢

来不及完美的

就唱首骊歌

想起你的时候

我不是卑微的

反而我没有遗憾

因为我已爱过你深深的

当眼泪都能笑了的时候，我放弃了。。。

同恩 - 本来; i fell in love with this song.

2009-07-23T16:08:00.000+08:00

下雨了站在玻璃门里头
并没有总是挂念着我
你带着雨伞来接我
夜晚了只剩老板跟我
像从前你抽着烟皱眉头
不知怎么安抚太任性的我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
手写的留言对象
已经不会是我

停雨了不必再躲雨了
已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走
太晚了只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车
常常会半路熄火的后座
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
长长的简讯对象
已经不会是我
走在湿漉漉红砖道上
沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难
也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点
该几点回到家
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你再也不疼我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再保护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了
对不起长大太慢
害你遗失了我
抱歉让你白费了这么多

:) THANK YOU KENNETH AND WEWE! XD

2009-07-21T00:06:00.006+08:00

apicture speak a thousand words.i have 3 here. so it says alot already. i wanna DREAM OF WEWE tonight!! :B

THANK YOU! :D

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY 20!

2009-07-19T22:39:00.007+08:00

met up with Clar and gang just now!!! :DDD she surprised me laaaa. i tot i was only meeting her. end up she pa kak with ah yi, ring & popo! LOL! end up all came. weeeeeeeeee. it's like another gathering again :) that's when virtuality came into real life :D and we met upon fate and ended up as real friends. :D

A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU! :DDD and i'm real glad to know you guys :D

THANKS CLAR FOR THE SURPRISEEE!!! and hor i will make sure the cactus dun die. x.x LOL!! <3333 :D

then when i reach home. i immediately saw a picture of Babe and me. LOL! then i ask mummy if babe came just now. LOL! and she said yah den tell me she even brought me a cake. HOHOHO! then i saw le i was like so "WAHHHHHHH!!" got chocolate xD LOLOLOL! *touched* then on the cake there 3 pieces of white chocolate mar? *edited: its actually OREO. SO IT's OREO CHEESECAKE.GOSH! dajie jiu shi dajie. so INNOVATIVE!!LOL!* not sure. x.x which says happy bdae amelia. xD HOHOHO it's a lil blur but i still can understand!!hehs. :DDDDD THANKS BABE FOR THE EFFORT!!! then Aunty was there when i reach home and she gave me ang bao xD hohoho!!! ^^V happy happy~

then then just now i went msn, di sent me her and chiabi's wishes. DAMN NICE!! chiabi did powerpoint slides. LOL!

SINCERE THANKS TO WHAT YOU GUYS DID FOR ME! and THANKS FOR ALL THE WISHES sprawled across my FACEBOOK! MUCH APPRECIATED! :DDDD <3 YOU GUYS TONNES :DDDD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D

2009-07-19T06:27:00.003+08:00

firstly, thanks for all the wishes people :D appreciated. ^^

secondly, i'm still at era with sista, mao and vin. ._. @@ tired die~

thirdly, i feel sleepy already ._____.''

meet clar later!! clar if you're online and read this later, u will noe why i wake up so late alrdy. ._. cuz sleeping LOL! :x

i asked di to get a ribbon to wrap arnd herself then transport to SG. LOL nice present :D

@@~

SLEEEEPPPPP xD

P/S I'M HOMEEEE!! @08:27am

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! I <3 YOU! xD

2009-07-15T00:09:00.004+08:00

hohoho. was celebrating mum's birthday at the last hour. wakaka. cause Alex came over. xD went Habourfront for lunch so i went to see the cake. finally decided on one from Swiss Bake.

TADAH~

it's in HEART SHAPE! :DDD hehs. <3

just now went home straight after work. told mummy a white lie saying i will reach AMK at 6.45 so that she'll leave house earlier then i can sneak home and keep the cake till Alex reach tonight. wakaka. managed to keep her in the dark xD so when she was on the phone i went to get the cake frm the fridge then with Alex's help we managed to throw in the surprise for her! xD weeeeeeeeee wakaka. she was super duper happy laaaaas. :) we sang the birthday song so suddenly. hur hur. she was shock la. LOL! and and the cake from swiss bake is simply delicious!!! xD gosh. to think she was still complaining earlier on when we were at ah ma's house visiting Uncle Jason. hahaha! anyways, celebrated her birthday. :D happy happy happy! was msn-ing with Clar and Di. and they told my mum happy birthday. i CONVEYED ur msges kays. then my mum was like 'O.O? orh thank you.' then gave me that shocked look. LOL! :x

i guess i haven't felt so happy for quite some time already. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM. <3 :) *so long as you are happy, i'd be too.* night filled with love and laughter. not by anyone else but mummy. :D toodles~

Thread of Destiny. What pull US together :)

2009-07-13T13:36:00.003+08:00

watched the movie on Sat with Babe. we have wanting to catch it since we saw it at de preview when we watch Transformer. haha. i wonder if all cell novel in Japanese are so interesting and touching? HMM..

before that i was watching Zac Effron's 17 Again online. Shuai ge :x hahaha! told Kenneth about it then he say i was seeing shuai ge for the whole day cause the male lead, ' Atsushi ' for Threads of Destiny also shuai xD lolololol!

anyway i've been slacking at home for past two days besides the movie. i hope weekend comes faster D: then i can slack again! xD OH YA maybe can ask BABE out watch HARRY POTTER. LOL! we really accomplish that weekly movie date thing. x.x'' not a bad idea since there're a few nice movies xD wakaka.

its either i busy die or i slack die at work. -.- played steps with Di for half the day cause i woke up at 2 xD hur hur. sleep at 6am mar. no choice :x increase 2 level xD he bought me something o.o we chose for so long and finally decided on which color. ended up with white cause he says it matches his ._.'' duh! well at least we are fine now.

i shall go search for some online cell novel. see what it is exactly all about. xD have been reading My Sister's Keeper. and i WANNA catch the movie! :D toodles~

cherish. love. i miss you.

2009-07-11T14:20:00.002+08:00

i hope.
hope everything will be back to when he hasn't left me. so that nobody else will too. back to those time when every new year i see him, cracking jokes, talking to me.

for if everything goes back, everyone will be fine and healthy. he left us, but don't u leave us as well. for if you do, i might as well just vanish from the surface of the earth.

is it unlucky? is it meant to be? or perhaps, it is that cause we always learn how to cherish after we've lost something. cause at least then we'll know, we'll sense. how important you actually held a place in my heart.

i hope not.

boring day at work~

2009-07-09T15:12:00.004+08:00

think i finish my work too soon. Zzz uber boredom. thank god i can use msn xD cannot play audi~ D: play FB play until nothing to play already. -CRIES- can die sia. D:
Wewe scared of thunder and lightning!! hur hur.. so cute lehs. xD I'M NOT SCARED! ROFL! yesterday brandon's dog ate up the KFC meant for his mum. LOL! then he say his dog is a MONSTER ROFL! offered to give him to me so that he would eat up my entire house. ._. toot

anywayzxc, i like the new song 借我一辈子 by 曹格. damn nice manzxc. sweet song :D sweet sweet sweet! is it raining outside now? i wonder. hmm.. if only i can go back home and sleep right now. D: i think he fell asleep while coaxing wewe about the thunderstorms since he feels drowsy as well. like since 1pm or maybe earlier? ._. LOL. *oh he didn't fall asleep :x LOL!* remember help your mum buy fruits later, patient! xD

i also want MC! then can stay at home xD luckily tmr's friday and WEEKEND IS NEAR xD
then i can sleep late late. wake up late late. woooooooots! :x rdm rdm rdm! cuz i'm bored stiff ._. tmr tmr tmr! weekends faster come please :D

supposed to go jogging with my colleagues. now rain so heavy. HOW HOW HOW! D: another day liaos D: and and i wanna eat :x missed lunch just now. x______x hungry liaos! wuuuuu~

if rain then no need jog lurh. ._.'' sighs~

i told myself not to, i told myself i dont care. i told myself it doesnt matter, i told myself not to bother. and i think i did it.i don't know if it doesn't mean anythng to me anymore or is it that, i am already so used to it all that i can feel nth. nth at all. numb.

2009-07-04T20:57:00.002+08:00

i did it. fast and clean. not even friends anymore. 我就这么果断地做出抉择. virtuality. he was my best friend, best playmate for the past half year. even in steps. but now since we've both changed, let's just forget it. lara won't be with jin anymore. :) virtuality. i've clicked on it without thinking. is there a break-up button for me to click back in the real life? and everything would be as simple as that. not that that's how much i treasure a relationship. but when people changes, and you can't really catch up, it won't do any good to both parties. i told him that he could find anyone he like to couple up with now that i'm no longer the obstacle.

i'd do the same in real. if you just say the word. for when a heart's dead, nothing will be left anymore. be glad, it'd be a new start :)

if only there's the break button in real. if it were all so easy.

sometimes, the only obstacle we can't overcome is ourselves. :)

2009-07-01T16:20:00.002+08:00

一个人　眺望碧海和蓝天　
在心里面　那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越　
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝　因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远　
不计画太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐地看每一天　Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解　
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗　
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙　
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放　
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

yah, the happiness you brought is limited.
and yes, when i first saw you, i wanted to see all the stories untold.
you've build a wall shielding yourself.
but whether or not if i can overcome this,
i don't know. really.
maybe it's cause i've given up. given up in what i used to believe could come true.

2009-06-30T13:42:00.004+08:00

*blows off dust* ~~blog~~ BLOG bLOG !!! transformer the movie rocks! xD caught the show with Babe, Steph, Veron and Nicholas! now i know why we got the first 2nd row. .___.'' it's a MUST-watch :D putting the scenes where metal fight against each other aside, the movie is a total comedy. LOL! some parts are just SUPER hilarious la! everyone in the theatre laughs every now and then. LOL! we got there like super early alrdy, but well, actually first few row seats aren't actually THAT bad. LOL! nice~ xD then we went on to SHOP xD and then we TOOK fotos! LOLOLOL! there's this CLASSIC photo. xD

the three tried to imitate the pose on the wallpaper la! LOL! classic~

then.. while nicholas was still trying the shirts when we girls are done! LOL!

that explains why he's not in the foto :x HAHA!

finally! US! :D

enjoyable dayyyy. :)

yet another week ;D

2009-06-13T00:21:00.003+08:00

phews! *sighs of relieve* xD yet another week of work passed. time seriously just pass by in the blink of eyes. perhaps cause i have things to do every single day. non-stop. x.x workload's getting heavier. but well, i'm surviving. hahaha!

went to catch Ghosts of Girlfriends Past, the movie with Babe and Steph after work just now. it's OMGosh nice! well, typical expected ending but with a little twist and laughter, the plot is just well-written. xD simply love it. comedy romance flick with a little touching scene is just my choice in a nice romance flick. imagine all love no laughter. sad. hahaha! well anyway all three of us weren't able to grade it down so i guess it's worth the watch :D

walked around after the movie thereafter went home. hahaha! and i'm damn worn out alrdy after whole day of work. x.x went to the BW guide's campfire on Tuesday. i'm GLAD i went. right nisey? hehs. pictures, pictures and more pictures taken with my long time friends. missed those times we were all together and enjoying our secondary school life. now i wish i could just go back. putting aside those mundane classes of course. LOL. but well, it comes in a package so i guess it wouldn't be possible. went for my uber late dinner with the old ones. HAHA OPPS :x well after we saw those cute brownies, we've got no choice but to admit we're wayyyy past their league, ain't we? went to s'goon gardens and we chatted and laughed at those good old times. it's really been quite a while since i've really laughed out loud like this anymore. there seems to be nothing worthy of those laughter. Am i happy now? hmm, i'm satisfied. But perhaps just not THAT happy. there're still problems in the everyday life. which i am tired of finding a solution to cause it just keep coming and even more. so sick.

anyways, STEPS has got alot of new songs. NICE songs. really. even 梁静茹's 没有如果.haha! now even bell and di know it's one of my favourite song. LOL! still hasn't played with kenneth in audi yet la. hahaha! dwnload le nvr play. LOL! shall find some time xD

recently there seems to be a lot of movies of my choice. Babe says we can catch a movie every week. LOL!!! i wish. x.x but next saturday i'll be going off to Genting le. enjoy my long weekend off xD colleagues have been pretty kind to me so far. which is one of the main reason i can survive here. xD

it's a long long night.once again. when i used to hope you were right beside me. but i guessed the hopes had vanished. slowly. bit by bit.i'm getting used to it. and maybe it should be a good thing? í'm asking a question i don't have an answer to. hahaha~

The Reasons For My Smile. :)

2009-06-02T15:15:00.005+08:00

The Reasons to My SMILES. :)

1) My Mum is LOVELY. though she makes me fuming mad at times.

2) My Dad Do Care. though he doesn't show it.i know.

3) Babe is there whenever i need her. The BEST FRIEND whom i know can LAST more than a LIFETIME. :) BFF. hehs. :p

4) Allyson,Koay Yi Ling!(LOL!), Di a.k.a Tig is the real soulmate. We don't have to SEE each other to know. all the things we've talked. the experiences unforgotten. never ever :)

5) ChiaBi talks WAYYYYY TOO MUCH. LOL! :x but somehow it could cheer me up. LOL!

6) Clarisee a.k.a HUNNEH syncs with me. be it our THOUGHTS or OUR PERFS in AuditionSEA. LOL! *SPOOKED* S2222~

7) Denise a.k.a nisey is the Love. whatever we've shared. No ONE can take it away :D and we end our meal with a 'Shall We?' and 'We Shall' hahaha!

8) Edmund a.k.a bell/jin can just make me laugh in a LOL way with a simple SMS out of nowhere. Our Perfs in game is NEVERENDING. LOL!i shall continue to take away your Perfs :D

9) JX the philosopher always crack me up with his LAME stuff. He's my BBF la but when something happens to me, he'll always be the last to know. by that time, i recover already lors. LOL! but he said somehow i always happen to sought him out when he's not in a good mood. LOL! kismet, i'd say. wahaha! BBFF forever la! XD

10) Kenneth tells me bedtime story to sleep. We share the bedtime stories. but why did all these stories always seem to have a sad ending? Perhaps we can carve out a more beautifully said bedtime story with a happy ending soon. :)

11) Kun talks crap with me ALL the time i'm at work on MSN. LOL! we've knew each other for like 2 years already? OMG. LOL! that's fast. well, your crap make me goes LOL sometimes la. seriously. .___. LOL!

12) Poly Clique are MISSED. i missed the long break times. the WINNIE QUAH classes cause we'll be chatting and showing our ultimate sacarsm skill obtained from THAT particular lecturer. LOL! when are we going out!!? D:

13) Ris a.k.a Popo/ GREEN MAN WITH THE PINK WABBIT tries his best not to let me fall asleep at work. LOL!!!! :x cause waking up SO early in the MORNING is a CHORE. D: perks me up with the funny stuff. LOL!! i missed those good old days!!! XD

14) Shirley a.k.a sista and Kian a.k.a mao as the couple of the year. LOL! you two are supposed to last forever de hors! don't disappoint me huh. wakaka! :x Audi FB is ... but still LoveLetters HUAT! XD muahaha!

15) Yun a.k.a Ah Yi is the newest in the group. wahaha! the triplet is always up for a good laugh. LOL! LOVE ALL the CRAP we talked about. :D and it really made me smile. :D

i will never ever forget this. all the happiness, unhappiness we shared will be treasured. they are my daily dose of happiness! :D <333333 ALL of you la! XD

Created a quiz just now and let ah yi and di take. MUAHHAHAH! not bad not bad. results as shown. BABE! YOU ARE EXPECTED TO GET 100% lehhhhh. XD their results as shown:

will you guys treasure me as well? :x *kops from hunneh's blog title* XP -wakakas-

2009-05-30T12:11:00.001+08:00

Now after all of this time that we tried
I found out we were living a lie
That after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same

The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you

I woke up kinda early today
And something told me from that moment
It wouldn’t be the same
It felt like you were hiding something
But I didn’t push it
I didn’t know what to say
I tried to pretend, Like I didn’t see it
Cause deep down I knew I didn’t want to believe it
There it was, it was you and her
You left your sidekick on the nightstand
And I read
Everything you did, and everything you said and
And now I’m standing here looking like damn..
I thought it was you and I
Now I all I got to say is why?
After all of this time that we tried
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same

The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you

I notice now,that when I'm around
You be trying to lock the door
Whispering on the phone
Now wait a minute since we been in this house
You ain’t never did this before
Tell me what’s this about?
I tried to sit and say to myself
This here is too good he don’t want nothing else
There it was, it was you and her
You left your credit card receipt inside the beamer babe
Everything you bought her, and everything you spending
Now I’m standing here once again
I thought it was you and I
Now I all I have to say is why?
After all of this time that we tried
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same

The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you

You Lied, You lied, Oh Why?
Why'd you have to lie to me?
Why'd you have to lie to me?
Why'd you have to lie to me?
Why?

After all of the times that we've tried
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same

The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you

2009-05-30T11:49:00.002+08:00

累了交困里努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的就停止了

听着你心像往常还有热
越美丽越更勇敢的
我还能展示什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会颁这种法门
想牵着你槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他给你我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会颁这种法门
想牵着你槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他给你

如果我变成回忆最怕我单独终极
顽固的烂在空气霸占你心里每一寸空隙
原来依然爱我的你总哭承受失去
这样不公平请你整理把我忘记

如果我有一天变成你的回忆, 请把我忘记.有人可以让你不再哭泣..

2009-05-27T15:47:00.002+08:00

SINCERE APPRECIATIONS TO CLAR AND NISEY for making the trip with me to SP yesterday ;D LOL! graduation is a troublesome thing. .___. but i'm OFFCIALLY A GRADUATE =DDDD *happy* mum kept asking me if there's a need for her to go. but then she got to work so i said never mind la. >< graduation ceremony only. sit so far away somemore. saw a MOHAWK wearing graduation attire. *AMAZED* -claps for his bravery- well, he took all the attention in the entire hall anyway. LOL!

brought nisey to FC4 for lunch. hehs. nice food right? :x anyway i had my share of fun there yesterday. meeting back my poly cliques not knowing when we'll have the time to meet up again. x.x all working D: myself included :x LOL!

anyway after the ceremony, we went off quite fast and clar and i went off to Bakerzin for her spaghetti. i just ate the cake. nice ;D tiring but enjoyable yesterday. :D pictures all with them cause i didn't bring my camera. ROFL! :p

oh and i saw maomao after his class yesterday. LOLOL! good huh, ended early. haha! but sista got UT cannot come D: nevermind. next year you can attend mao the graduation :DD HAHAH!

reached home alrdy 10 plus. kinda tired then went audi for awhile. played with AIAI, Clar and ring. so funny la. ring's on-going crapping. then we here add abit there add abit. laugh dao pengs. HAHA! too bad bliss went off earlier. didn't see her D: never mind, there's tonight :DD LOL!

think i really don't know how to appreciate lame stuff or what. that day met Ryan. he keep telling me lame stuff then i keep ._____. LOL! i think he see my reaction also sian la. LMHO!

woke JX up this morning LOL! how i know you off this entire week la D:< some more i text only leh. x__x arrange time to meet up huh! sat got cycle count x.x sunday meeting Clar, Nic and Yun late lunch? or early dinner? LOL! x.x wah liew. then no need to rest again. ><

Money really makes the world go round man. Now i finally see clearly your purpose of befriending me. at least i'm NOT that dumb. HA HA HA.

i think old friends are the best. for the older you grow, the more people you meet, the higher tendency for things to go wrong. and i suddenly realise i've been meeting a LOT of wrong people nowadays. Zzz! never mind i survived anyway. just no more tramping. for if you does it again. i'm sure to make your life worse than hell.

if we're gonna continue this way. we'll be acquaintaince and then back to strangers. the only reason being, what i feel is no longer important to you. perhaps vice versa.maybe it doesn't matter anymore.

end off, I HAVE A BAD THROAT! thanks for the logenzes! at least it works (temporary) ;D LOL!till i finished it up. CAN'T wait for Friday. CHILL OUT TIME <3

2009-05-26T12:56:00.001+08:00

nice song. thought who was 阿肯 initially. x__x so it's Akon. haha! anyway, enjoy~ ;D

I know they wanna come and separate us
but they can't do us nothin
You're the one I want and I'ma continue lovin
Cause you're considered wifey and I'm considered husband
And I'ma always be there for you
我不管你用任何眼光看我我都不会选择放弃
我要坚持到底忽略那些冷言冷语
爱是如此珍贵值得我们彼此相信
两颗心才越靠越近
And no one knows
Why Im into you
'Cause you'll never know
what its like to walk in our shoes
没人会懂是我们的梦
懂再多困难只要牵手就变得不同
Thats why we'll break through
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎怎么做
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Seems like every day that go by, things are gettin harder
Wanna be the one that give you the whole enchilada
'Cause I know what my baby like, I lean you on that Prada
You aint got to match with the shoes
我知道每一次的沟通就会让我爱你更多
跟一次的拥抱温暖让我不再怯懦
爱是真实的触摸美好或相同
Keepin it always true
And no one knows
Why Im into you
'Cause you'll never know what it's like to walk in our shoes
没人会懂是我们的梦
懂再多困难只要牵手就变得不同
Thats why we'll break through
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎怎么做
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
You are everything in my life, see the joy you bring
And aint no one I compare you to
And I know that you will never
walk away from me no matter what
And thats why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know
And I dont care what they say
Rap Wilber:
Be in my life with me
You know you my queen B
Show you the finer things in life and places you wanted to be
Its trips to Miami, rockin Tenjunge NYC
Party up at club Bling till 6 in da morning
Dont want yo body figure sexually
I wanna pop you figures annually, showing you security
You dont gotta worry B
Satisfaction guaranteed
You dont need another G
You can have it all in me
Eh, You like morphine ,you soothe me
Through the pain and the struggles, it gets hot, you cool me
Cuz You're a wifey quality qualified
Warranty you certified
You know how to get me high, hotter than a super ride
You know when you want it, you need it you know I got it
You know when you want me, you need you know I give it
So whenever in doubt, you can count on me
Whatever, its you be under my wing
Whenever you're down, you can put it on me
And wherever you go, you be rocking my ring
(Rap End)
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎怎么做
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
I gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎怎么做
I gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you

2009-05-26T00:44:00.003+08:00

back to square one. perhaps losing me means nothing. i just want you to be fine. would you be fine without me? i don't want to have to go through everything all over again. i'm tired. tired of waiting. will you show me some light to a direction where i can follow? for i will go berserk if i continue waiting at the original place.

i didn't know even waiting can hurt this bad. a wait with hope which didn't seem to come true. or perhaps never will. i need sleep. but it ain't easy..it ain't easy waiting for something that i can't be sure if it would blossom. needless to say, blossom into something i actually wanted.

can you tell me for sure? we are gonna blossom into something pretty. something to bring both of us through to our forever.

But. Can we? Can you? Can i?
i need to know.for even if you're not sure. i wouldn't have any reason to stay again.

2009-05-24T10:02:00.004+08:00

dead beat yesterday. it feels nice to see all of them again. at least we are ONE family. saw my beloved nephew and niece yesterday. they made my day. Aden was so happily playing with his Thomas and Friends toys. Ah ma and aunties cooked a splendid meal yesterday but i can't really eat much. sore throat soon >< i bet ah gong must be happy to see us gathering together some how. if he was there, he'd make some jokes that got all of us laughing for sure. IF...

after we finish praying, stayed around for a bit more then went home cause Mum gotta get to work. and i went home rotting. fell asleep somehow. only to wake up to a headache and painful throat. ._.

later need to go get my graduation attire already. hopefully Babe's free to go with me. if not have to go alone. D: can't believed i actually MISSED all the recommended timing. well, at most, i shall just not attend the ceremony. anyway, Mum's not free, Dad's working. Only child .__. never mind, i graduated anyway. ;D

Me with the <3 Aden's not looking!>< hahaha!Ning is such a good girl. smiles so happily la. :DD

Aden LOOKING innocent. HAHA! <3

At least they fill my dull day with a little colours. ;)

期待让人越来越沉溺

有谁和我一样

等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会

寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞一个人擦泪

一个人好累

2009-05-21T23:26:00.002+08:00

passed by the train station today while i took bus home. memories of him flowed back. we used to go in Malaysia through the train. then while waiting for the time to board the train, he would buy sweets, bread or magazines for me. everything there remained unchanged. just that the person who brought me there would never be able to visit there again..reminds me of how i would just weep in the bus on the way to school a few months back.perhaps during those times, i should actually be happier. at least he's around. physically there. imy. if you could ever hear me say that.

i just don't know how long i can stand all the shyt anymore. people kept coming and going. perhaps i should be happy with the fact that at least there's a few who'd stay. but i would never know if those whom i wanted to be in my life forever would still be there. life's unpredictable. i'm replaceable.

the same old problem over again and again. be it friends, relationship, work. uhs whatever situation. i want to find solutions to the problems. but i guess i'm just going the wrong way. perhaps i'd soon get used to the life i'm leading. no directions. everyday all i know what i should do is w-o-r-k. for there's nothing else i could focus on anymore. graduation's coming. i'm not even happy. can't i just not go and get the cert another day. it's annoying. but at least nisey's accompanying me. mao mao and sista wanted to come. but their classes end kinda late that day. appreciates you guys taking time off to come :D nisey. i'll meet up with u first then we can go together :) mao mao better don't PON class huh and sista take ur time to come to SP. :) ask mao show you around. haha~

tomorrow's the hundredth day that i last met him.and still counting...

Everything's changed. treasure people around you who's worth treasuring. friends, family, loved ones. one day, they might just not be with you forever. take me for granted and i'll never ever appear in your life again..

2009-05-19T16:03:00.003+08:00

damn tired these few weeks la. always not enough sleep. got tonnes of work waiting to be done. i nvr meet Babe enough. nvr meet nisey, clar, jx and i nvr meet xav also. wah piangs. everyday OT. OT till i @.@ already la. D: can really fall asleep anytime la. x.x OH the only people i meet VERY frequently would be Sharon, Uncle Chua, Vince, Chris etc. x.x LOL! i'm glad they are my colleagues anyway la. other dept's sucky. *elks*

i want to SLEEP EARLIER! D:< but i got so used to sleeping late. x___x then keep late for work @.@ luckily got grace period. LOL! x.x

i've just gotten used to this kind of lifestyle. where you do possessed something, but you don't seem to possess it in real. or when you do actually feel something but what you felt now could only be triggered when you see it for yourself. aiya. forget it. random-ness. -.- Hmm.. the old song that kept ringing in my head.shall end the post off with this then.

the chorus goes like this...

你不在当我最需要爱

你却不在

无尽等待像独白的难捱

你不在高兴还是悲哀

你都不在

我受了伤害再偷偷好起来

你不在

OTs. x__x

2009-05-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

have been working so much OTs with sharon lately. almost die-d of fatigue la. LOL! everytime reach home around 9 or 10. bathe, online then to bed already. daily mundane routine. a cycle that repeats everyday. gosh.

went for the cycle count over at Alex's place to help out. i did the data entry with the girls at their side. seriously. office politics man. and from NOW on, i PROMISE i'll treasure my colleagues man! LOVE them to bits and pieces la. HP's office politics is like SO *%&$#*@&% la. G.O.O.D.N.E.S.S!woke up at 5 plus am then went for breakfast with sharon at the coffee shop near office. their bah chor mee nice sia! vry hmm.. 道地.haha i guess thats the word la. >< then stared at the computer screen and did data entry since morning. all the way till 6plus. waited for sharon to finish up her counts then finally we can GO HOME! waited at the stupid bus stop for like god-knows-how-long la. cause first two bus were frigging crowded. -.- we were like gonna cry already la. and sharon kept complaining that she stinks cause she perspire alot from the count. NO AIR-CON. lucky im in the office :x and she used up her less-than-one-mth-old HUGO BOSS perfume. x___x amazingly fast. LOL. >< home sweet home. and i pengs almost immediately.

woke up at 11 plus. went grocery shopping with mum. acc Babe to bugis to get the bag for her aunt. LOLS! wide variety to choose from o.o haha! we two @.@. anyway, mission accomplished. went around to ILUMA, the new shopping centre beside bugis village. the exterior is nice but the interior is like .___. normal dao.nonetheless it was kinda nice to visit. the entrance of ILUMA somehow reminds me of the grand cathay. cause it's HUGE and BULKY. only now did i realise something. cathay like to use BULKY DOORS. cineleisure's another one. x___x anyway home sweet home after that and here i am. blogging :D shall try to sleep earlier tonight. hehs :D

*at least i'm happy :)*

2009-05-11T17:06:00.004+08:00

i just realised ;

working is a good way to keep one's mind from thinking about problems.

games can also be a HUGE distraction.

i guess i'm addicted.

~~workaholic.~~

~~game addict.~~

& perhaps this is the best.

2009-05-10T15:11:00.004+08:00

Friday was kinda nice. Vince's treats to buffet at the Sakura Restaurant for lunch. A lot of good food. well, at least we enjoyed spending the times together. work is great. getting busier and busier but i'm glad i'm coping. there'd be more to come i heard .__." but i guess i'll be fine.

Spent the whole day yesterday stoning at home. x___x later Alex's coming over to celebrate Mothers' Day with mummy. don't know what we'll be getting for her later. She's F.U.S.S.Y la D:<

Kenneth went to HK! i also want D: then then! i HELP him TEND HIS FARM in FB.LOL! SO FUN! accept gifts here and there.:DD he's going to Disneyland over there.don't know if he can still find the keychain he bought me THE last ~~last~~ last time he went there or not. D: Hopefully can la huh :D then i'll be all smiles! LOL! :x

Vague vague VAGUE. i need to KNOW i exist and THEY'D NEED to know that as well. DO THEY? i guess not. for if they do, they wouldn't even try to come near. that day i was hearing "Everything" by Lee Hom. suddenly the lyrics struck me. it goes like this:

故事里的起承转合
有一些忘记做了多少错误的选择

原来波折才暗示着该走的方向
指引你我来到这一刻

就算别人都说我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃

Cause You're My Everything
就一个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天永远从此刻开始算起
你的爱是我的Everything

辽阔天际巧合相遇有多少机率
多少烟火坠落无痕迹
因为幸福没有捷径难免要绕道
不被看好越是要走到

就算别人都说我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃

你就是Everything
就这个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就这个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天永远从此刻开始算起

你就是Everything
就如这个原因我会永远记住这种感觉
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything

such a sweet song. :) Now who is YOUR everything? think it through. :)

---LOL---

2009-05-01T00:30:00.003+08:00

was super busy the entire day. x.x and and ystd met Babe and told her i changed my blog's url and she was like "i just update your new link not long ago leh" LOL! but that's cause she only updated after i informed her for quite some time lor. .___. HAHAH so this time round, i decided to log into her acc and relink myself. ROFL! so wierd. .___.

i just heard nise's back with dennis. haha no matter what's your decision, you'll have my support. :D and of course i won't be mad at you. ^^~ for if that's the case then i should even be madder at myself in de first place. lol! that's what sistas are for. :) <3

practically either busy or bored to death at work. Monday's gotta OT = $$ and sharon's gonna OT as well cause both of us need to complete the report for submission. wahahha! and finally my lappy is working fine and i don't have to go back and forth using two coms at two desks beside each other. .___.

happened to find my old journal and i read through what i wrote last time when i was in Sec sch. saw alot of how i felt when i was in the past relationship that lasted the longest. (which is not LONG at all .___.) anyway, felt kinda silly and funny. haha! not bad to think back of those days. well, can't deny that it's a part of growing up as well, can i? and i guess the relationship allowed me to see a lot of things in life more clearly as well. and i'm glad i've learn and benefitted from it :)

-yawns- i'm gonna L.O.V.E... :D

brand new! :D

2009-04-28T21:10:00.001+08:00

have been working on this since last night. >< keep asking Popo and Di to help me see cause the skin can't work initially.but well, problems solved! sowies di and popo! trouble u two.. hur hur! at least my efforts paid off! wakaka! :p

uber in LOVE with this skin :) hehs. fellow friends.. i won't be deleting the old blog but shan't update there anymore as well. leave all the happiness and unhappiness there :D

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